THE NEXT DAY WAS HARDER THEN THE PREVIOUS ONE

THE NEXT DAY WAS HARDER

THEN THE PREVIOUS ONE

That sleepless night destroyed me completely. The eyes was hard to keep open. The pain was terrible, so was I could not go to the toilet even. One after one the doctors were arriving to check something and to ask questions. I was not able to answer or to ask something , and had to wait for the partner to arrive. It used to make me very irritated. I was thirsty, hungry, the head going round...I was feeling myself in a hell again, like the days before.

When my partner arrived, the nurse showed both of us how to change the pampers for the baby, and how to close it in the right mood. My hands were still very weak and a bit frozen. So, I could not do it in a proper mood yet.

The nurse also showed me how to keep the baby while transporting. I studied then that one hand has to be under the head to fix it. And, another one under the back and butt have to be, so not to hurt it. It always was possible to put it up to one hand along and to try to the body. By the way, the last position was very similar to the one that I feed the baby while sitting up. It was hard to put on the clothes for the first time, too. As the baby was moving all the times hands and legs. But, together with the nurse we handled it!

The baby was mostly sleeping and disturbing with the cry only when it was hungry and had the pampers dirty. What disturbed me more, it was how to reduce the pain. Because the pills were not helping, and the pain the next day was just terrible. It did not let me to go neither to toilet, nor to sit down up to the chair. Specially, when the doctors were doing  some checking there, and they were doing them every few hours.

Another point that I wished immediately to know, when I would be able to be free from that place. I expected that not much. I have heard about some mammies to departure home the next day after the delivery. But, in the hospital they disappointed me much. As they said, in spite of all seems ok, I would be not able to leave home at least during next three days. The reason they were not letting me to go home fast, was not me, but the baby. They  need to do all the necessary checks that could not be done in one day. For example, the child could get a yellow skin. And, if it happens, it normally appears up the third day after  the delivery. It was their responsibility, if something happens outside the hospital. So, they  did not let me to leave away and to come back to hospital, if I notice just something strange later.

So, all the next days were approximately the same. I just was getting more depressed of that place...