AND EVEN TO THE TOILET IT WAS NECESSARY TO GO WITH THE BABY

AND EVEN TO THE TOILET IT WAS NECESSARY TO GO WITH THE BABY 

I felt were tired and wished to rest. The doctors said that I have a few hours to sleep. Then  they would bring me a baby for the first feeding.

I shared the room with one more mammy there. And there was her two days old child, too. The cry of the baby did not let me to fall asleep. Being exhausted, and starting to feel the pain again, it was very irritating to stay like this.

Few hours have passed and they brought me the baby. My eyes were completely closing. I could not sit down the bed. So, the nurse put the baby close to me. And showed me how to  keep her close to the tit. Later I had to put the baby back into her own bed. I was not used to have a deal with the new borns. And since then the baby had to stay with me. So, they told me to call them back with the bell, if I need the help. And they promised to arrive later to show me how to change the pampers. There, in the baby's bed, there was such the note-book where I had to write down the hours when baby ate, did pee and poo. So, they could control, if with the baby all was going fine.

After the dinner, the doctors gave me the pain-killer, checked me and let me to take a shower. Honestly, the pain-killer was not working much. And, it was very painful to take the shower. Sure, I let the baby outside the bathroom. And, as I got to know and it surprised me much, it was not correct. Well, I thought the hospital room is a safe place. But they explained that for security reason I have to take my baby with me even to the toilet.

Honestly, I did not feel any confidence to keep my baby up to the hands or to move. I was afraid to hurt her. The first night I did not change the pampers by my own. To do this for me and my baby the nurses were arriving. I did not have enough colostrum, seems like, because the baby was crying. So, they also transported it away to feed up with the baby bottle milk. That night I still did not managed to fall asleep, as my baby and the baby of my room-mate on were crying...